My poor kid fell out of bed at 4:45am. She's fine, but the thud was terrifying. She banged her knee and was more scared than physically hurt. Of course, being the stellar mom that I am, after snuggling and comforting her I hit snooze and overslept by like an hour. I told her that snuggling was the best part of my day, but now I'm gonna be a little bit crazed getting us out of the house. Thank God my alarm goes off over 2 hours before we actually have to leave.
Had a 'talk' with my husband the other night. Another thing that goes boom - my marriage. I am adamant about 'this is your third strike' and sticking to my guns, but there are so many factors that feed into a marriage and family. My daughter is so very happy and secure. She never once acted out with my recent health scare and hospitalization, and this past weekend my husband was hospitalized with kidney stones and she was again unfazed. This speaks volumes to how I am raising her. She knows she can trust what I tell her and not worry. She is happy to stay with anyone we leave her with (family and friends). She didn't cry over not seeing either me or him for 4 days. That's huge.
Another factor is money of course. I can't support her and myself on just my salary. And he doesn't make much more - certainly not enough to cover 2 homes. My mother is 84 years old, and while she'd take us in, it isn't fair to do that to her. Plus it would mean almost tripling my commute and adding 2 bridge tolls a day. Fiscally impossible.
So I continue to mull it all over...
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